Day 81 of 84 - It's the Final Countdown!!!
HA! There's another song to get stuck in your head for this beautiful Friday morning. I know... I'm mean! So, where have I been? Hiding... licking my wounds... sulking... pouting... take your pick. It's been a crazy 12 weeks, that's for sure.
Okay, so I'll admit that this challenge did not go ANYTHING like I thought it would when I started it I had goals, I had plans, I had expectations and I had hope. Well, all of those were tested along the way. All of them were tossed away and replaced by so many other things. In the end I learned a lot about myself the past 12 weeks. Keeping a constant journal of your thoughts and feelings, even when you want to hide in a hole instead of typing them out, helped a ton and got me through a lot of it. Being in this challenge helped me find the willpower to not just say "Screw it!" and hit the closest drive thru or gorge myself on chocolate and other not-so-great-for-me-items-that-I-love.
I've found that my old habits as far as stress are not the habits I turned to. I didn't have to give myself pep talks. My brain didn't even go there. So, if nothing else went according to plan during this challenge, at least I can hold onto that because that is HUGE!! Plus, I know in the end I will report a loss in weight along with SEVERAL things found along the way.
What things have I found? I've found that I love to swim and so does my hubby. I enjoy swim lessons as much as my kids do. Who knew?!? I've found a new direction of discovering the issue with my side pain and I'm keeping an open mind there. I found out that several of my old pants fit again and some are too big. I found some advocates in the form of specialists to help me figure out issues that I have tried to bury over the past few months and even the past several years. Seeing a specialist about my PCOS gave me some direction as far as where to go from here to try to treat symptoms and live with this syndrome. Getting a second opinion on my shoulder rewarded me with someone who was willing to sit down, discuss my MRI with me and point out everything and answer all of my questions. It also resulted in scheduling my surgery for next Tuesday and him promising that he will get me in the pool again ASAP. I liked him!! I'm ready to feel like less of a lump.
But one thing I didn't expect... I've found that by looking at my life now and looking at my goals that I finally took the steps to stop TALKING about going back to school for my masters and actually started moving toward it. I've got the financial aid aspect all lined up, I'm deciding between two programs and next month I will submit my applications for everything and cross my fingers to be accepted into a program that is a big change from my current career and my current degree. I'm excited and nervous.
I guess in the end I didn't expect this challenge to be so life changing. I figured there would be some physical changes, some habit changes and some mental changes... It ended up being so much more!
I can place so many big ones, but it's the unexpected moments that really make you step back and say, "WOW! I never saw that one coming!" So, stay tuned for my next challenge... Rehabilitation with a side of nutrition adjustment (again). I'm not giving up on my goal of being healthier, fitter and more active. I've just got some new hurdles to jump along the way.
Okay, so I'll admit that this challenge did not go ANYTHING like I thought it would when I started it I had goals, I had plans, I had expectations and I had hope. Well, all of those were tested along the way. All of them were tossed away and replaced by so many other things. In the end I learned a lot about myself the past 12 weeks. Keeping a constant journal of your thoughts and feelings, even when you want to hide in a hole instead of typing them out, helped a ton and got me through a lot of it. Being in this challenge helped me find the willpower to not just say "Screw it!" and hit the closest drive thru or gorge myself on chocolate and other not-so-great-for-me-items-that-I-love.
I've found that my old habits as far as stress are not the habits I turned to. I didn't have to give myself pep talks. My brain didn't even go there. So, if nothing else went according to plan during this challenge, at least I can hold onto that because that is HUGE!! Plus, I know in the end I will report a loss in weight along with SEVERAL things found along the way.
What things have I found? I've found that I love to swim and so does my hubby. I enjoy swim lessons as much as my kids do. Who knew?!? I've found a new direction of discovering the issue with my side pain and I'm keeping an open mind there. I found out that several of my old pants fit again and some are too big. I found some advocates in the form of specialists to help me figure out issues that I have tried to bury over the past few months and even the past several years. Seeing a specialist about my PCOS gave me some direction as far as where to go from here to try to treat symptoms and live with this syndrome. Getting a second opinion on my shoulder rewarded me with someone who was willing to sit down, discuss my MRI with me and point out everything and answer all of my questions. It also resulted in scheduling my surgery for next Tuesday and him promising that he will get me in the pool again ASAP. I liked him!! I'm ready to feel like less of a lump.
But one thing I didn't expect... I've found that by looking at my life now and looking at my goals that I finally took the steps to stop TALKING about going back to school for my masters and actually started moving toward it. I've got the financial aid aspect all lined up, I'm deciding between two programs and next month I will submit my applications for everything and cross my fingers to be accepted into a program that is a big change from my current career and my current degree. I'm excited and nervous.
I guess in the end I didn't expect this challenge to be so life changing. I figured there would be some physical changes, some habit changes and some mental changes... It ended up being so much more!
I can place so many big ones, but it's the unexpected moments that really make you step back and say, "WOW! I never saw that one coming!" So, stay tuned for my next challenge... Rehabilitation with a side of nutrition adjustment (again). I'm not giving up on my goal of being healthier, fitter and more active. I've just got some new hurdles to jump along the way.
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