Final Day In The Office!!!

 

I cannot believe we are here already! I mean, when I was in the thick of it, the coming week felt like it would take forever to get here and now… Knock! Knock! It’s HERE!!

Next Week

Some of you may be wondering why my last day in the office is today, Friday, if I don’t have surgery until Wednesday. My youngest daughter is 12 and has osteoporosis (among other things) which we are treating with biophosphinate infusions.

First, YES, the idea of injecting some medicine I know very little about into my child’s body with the theory of helping her is hard to handle. There are, of course, questions about long-term effects, something coming up in the future that can be related back to these infusions, or the simple, ongoing question in my head, “Am I doing the right thing??”

So far, I’m going to hang on to hope and faith that even though this is something very rare for children to have and this treatment isn’t a common treatment for children, period, it is helping her. I have heard less complaints about ongoing, daily pain being as intense as it was, she’s grown like 4.5″ since we started the treatments, so her bones are growing. And I also keep in mind that we are doing another scan of her after this infusion to see if it is, in fact, helping her bone density issues.

I’m praying hard that it is because this poor kid has been through so much the past few years. She really needs a break, and time to be a kid. I’ve watched my little extroverted daredevil turn into an introverted homebody and it hurts my mama heart.

Anyway, her infusion is Monday and the day after she is usually extra sore and exhausted, so we make sure an adult is home with her (she goes to school online due to all of the medical appts she has). That gives me a work at home day to get all of my ducks in a row before I sign off and stow my computer away for a couple of weeks!

Fear of the Unknown

I had to use this image today because it’s fitting for both of us. I choose to believe that my baby girl will get some relief and trust her body to allow her to do the things she used to enjoy, so she can have the best childhood experiences.

And for me because I knew when I set out on this journey toward surgery that it was the right choice. As soon as I made the appointment I just felt relaxed and at ease with all of it.

Do I have worries?

You bet!

Am I nervous?

Sure, but more excited than nervous.

Honestly, my biggest fear is failing AGAIN! What happens if I get this surgery and something goes wrong? What happens if I get this surgery and all goes right, but I screw it all up? Yeah, instead of FOMO (fear of missing out), I have FOTU (fear of the unknown).

Celebration!

So, for now I celebrate.

I hit the 10 pounds lost milestone yesterday, I’m down 2.3% body fat, and my BMI is down 1.6 as well. For one week, I will consider that an absolute success!

My pre-op report has been received by my surgeon, my FMLA papers have been faxed to my HR person, and I have gotten all of my stuff together to hand off to my coworkers to cover while I’m gone. I’m READY!!!

Bring on the weekend! Be safe and enjoy the warmer weather (if you’re in the upper midwest).